Waiting

Waiting. It's all I have been doing this summer. When I think back to the summer of 2011 I am going to think "man all I did was wait till August and then the fun finally started." Let me discuss some of these things that I have been waiting for. First big thing is that I am engaged! Our wedding date is August 6th (hence the "fun doesn't start till August" thing) but worse than waiting for our wedding is that my fiancee has been in California with her parents and little brother since April! I wont get to see her until 2 weeks before the wedding. What is a guy supposed to do while his fiancee is gone for 3 months!? I'll tell you what I've been doing. Waiting... that's it. During this 3 month waiting period I've found myself waiting for a whole slew of different things, and what I have come to learn is that you wait and wait and wait then whatever it is you are waiting for finally happens! but then it's over and you're now stuck waiting for the next thing to come along. It's a horrible cycle that only leaves you wanting more.

Here's a great example. I like to think of myself as a big Utah Jazz fan. Living in Utah it's only natural. Man I love my Jazz but we sucked royally last year. Without getting too much into Coach Sloan retiring or the Deron Williams trade and whether or not I think it was a good idea, these things left us in a position to fail this year. There was little leadership on the team, we were very young and man did we fall. Luckily that left us in a great position this year for the draft. After the lottery I hear we now have the 3rd and 12th picks in this draft. Holy Crap! This is gonna be awesome! Just to make me more excited I am also a BYU fan and Jimmer was going to be in this draft with a possiblity of the Jazz drafting him. (no I was not a "draft Jimmer or else" kinda guy, in fact I had other players I wanted to see the Jazz take instead of him, but the idea was very intriguing) So there I was waiting for the draft. I'm pretty sure that while I was at work I looked at mock draft and Jazz insider stuff everyday. All I wanted was for draft day to finally be here. Then it finally came! Draft day! Then it was over. ... Was that story anti-climactic? Yeah well so was the draft. Don't get me wrong I am so excited to see how Kanter and Burks do on the team, but now I'm waiting for the NBA season to start. I waited and waited and it finally happened! then an hour later I found myself waiting again.


That story sums up my whole summer. Wait, then it happens, then wait again. Sometimes the waiting gets us no where, and we find out what we've been waiting for doesn't actually happen. Like waiting all year to see if you can get into the nursing program at your University; finally finishing all the necessary classes, taking the necessary tests, and going through all the interviews you find yourself waiting for the mail to come. What happens when the mail finally does come and the letter says they didn't accept you? You waited and worked hard and then what? Well that's what I'm dealing with. Now that I didn't get accepted it looks like I have to wait for another application process in August and see if I can do better in this interview. I'll have to wait to start the program while I take different classes.

Like I said before, this kind of mentality of always waiting for things will just leave you wanting more. Time for me to stop all this waiting, and just go after what each day gives me. I mean of course I'm gonna have things to wait for like my wedding, but waiting becomes a lot easier when you fill your time with fun, and productive activities. I guess I am supposed to know this by now, and part of me already did. It sometimes just takes a while to realize what you are doing in order to make changes. (yes I do like to pretend that I am an optimist) Some say waiting is for the birds, which doesn't really make sense to me because when I see birds they are always flying around or chirping and having fun. I say waiting is for people who can't think of better things to do than to just sit around and wait. Yeahh that sounds about right.